I haven’t done a weekly rant in quite some time. But the need arose and I realized sometimes we do have to be honest and put a piece of ourselves out there because someone else might need to hear it. I always considered myself fairly well rounded and I’m not talking about my actual shape hehe! I have always had lots of friends and been close to many different people. I love people! I have been told by my friends that I was a mother before I was a mother. I cared for and looked after my friends always. They could call me for anything and I would be there. This is still the case. But what many of them don’t know is that I suffer from severe anxiety attacks and occasional bouts of depression and I have for years. And sadly until recently I never thought I could turn to them. 18.1 percent of American adults – about 42 million people – live with anxiety disorders. This fact and more can be found here: Fact and statistics
One of the most common misconceptions is that someone with anxiety is just emotional. When someone you love is crying and they can’t give you a reason they really may not have one. I spent a lot of years hiding my emotions and fears from family and friends. Feeling like your being crushed by your world is indescribable. There are times that it physically hurts to be alone, but it is so painful and frustrating to be around others and not be able to fully articulate what you are going through. We have to hide it, ignore it, suppress it, or get labeled crazy or overly emotional. When someone has anxiety or depression and our family or friends find out we often hear how loved we are from those closest to us. And man we appreciate it. And we do believe you and we love you back. But logical emotion has absolutely nothing to do with what is happening to us when we are thrown into a full blown anxiety attack. So we are not slighting or belittling the sentiment but unfortunately it usually isn’t going to help get us through the episode. Normally we don’t know what has caused it or set us off. There are many tips for overcoming an attack and if you suffer from anxiety please do some research and figure out what works best for you. For me personally I can sense them coming on and I take some herbal remedy Pharma Gaba. I also have people in my life that can help me focus on other topics. Conversations that don’t focus on my feelings but something that forces me to focus outside of myself. This is what works for me.
Most importantly this rant is for two things 1. Get people talking about anxiety, depression, and mental illness 2. Let those that are suffering know that you are not alone.
The face of anxiety or depression is not easily recognized. It could be your best friend, your sister or brother, the person sitting next to you at a restaurant or the person in the next cubicle over. These people do not need to be feared. These people wish to feel better, wish to feel normal and most importantly wish to be understood by themselves and by others. I have always been very lucky to have people in my life that are understanding. I have become the type of person that can be open about anything I have going on. It’s all part of me and I hope that this may help someone else to see what they have going on and know they have someone they can talk to.
Most importantly if you fear for your safety or the safety of others seek attention from a medical professional. Do not be embarrassed or ashamed to tell your doctor you need help. If you can’t do it yourself get a family member to come with you but seek help. It’s out there to be had. And if you ever feel hopeless the Suicide Hotline is there to help. There is always someone to talk to.
No matter what you are not alone. No matter where you are there is help. And this is just the start of the conversation. The face of depression and anxiety looks like me. Maybe it looks like you.